An empty diary and a bit of “mum guilt”!

Hi! How are you doing? It’s been a while since I last posted – again! To be honest, there’s not been too much to post about. Let’s face it, although some restrictions have been lifted, our lives are still so, well, restricted!

Despite everything, I decided to buy a new diary – I always get an academic one as my work has been based around the academic year for the past eleven years. One of my favourite jobs at this time of year is to fill it in, I’m one of those who’s always enjoyed that September feeling. But this year, so far, it’s empty! I have absolutely nothing to put in it. So I’ve contented myself with filling in the birthday section instead, which is pointless as I have such a ridiculous memory for birthdays that I only need to be told a birthday once and I’ll more than likely remember it forever. But, I’m working on a few things so I’m hoping that it won’t be long until I do have something to put into my diary!

What to write?!!

At home, we’ve just been getting on with things, life isn’t much different to how it’s been for the past few months. However, something that I’ve noticed creeping up on me recently is that old friend – “mum guilt” – and why? Because I can’t take my little man to anything where he can mix with other children his own age. I mean, there’s nothing available to take him to so this mum guilt is a bit crazy really! There is nothing I can do about it. But, I still feel guilty that he’s not mixing, although I know that there are so many children in the same position. 

Trying to find things to do outside the house with a one-year-old isn’t easy. Yes, soft play has reopened, which I’d love him to go to, but I’m reluctant at the same time. Like many people, I’m just wary about everything at the moment. Plus, because my husband has multiple sclerosis, it does place him in the high-risk category. He’s able to go to work, but he is in a protected work environment, and has been for months. I’m just going to wait and see how the next few weeks go. I think that the return to school will be quite telling – hopefully in a positive way.  

To be honest, I’m just counting my blessings because we’re so lucky with where we live. It is a beautiful place with lots of pretty walks and great beaches to visit, so that’s what we’ve been doing. The beach is becoming a bit of a difficult one, simply because my little man loves it so much, that he never wants to leave it! But it’s great to see him enjoying it so much, in fact he just loves being outside in general. We seem to have an outdoorsy boy – just like his dad and nothing like his mum, who prefers to be cosy inside and curled up with a book! But I think this is a good thing, I’m going to have to become outdoorsy! 

My outdoorsy boy in his favourite place.

So that’s where things are up to for us at this moment in time, it still feels like a bit of a limbo to be honest, but hopefully that will change in the coming months. 

Colette x

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